Today this has a couple of meanings…
- I’d like to take a minute to toot my own horn. I really think people don’t brag on themselves, least of all me. My blog is full of hopeful hurt and strange musings. My honesty is limited to my rough times and I definitely need a change of pace.
- I worked enough hours to leave work at noon to spend time with my husband on his day off and take my son to the pool. I have two hours of work left for the day and 8ish hours tomorrow and MAYBE have 2 things left to do. I am so super productive at work that I am able to take a minute or two of my “lunch” and blog.
- I have not stressed yet about this baby coming. I have paced myself with the prep work and was super frugal about buying everything we would need. I have stayed on track with my weight gain and am healthy enough to try this water birthing thing.
- We have saved two months of pay checks to cover my lack of money on maternity leave. I have also gone through the budget and found places to cut back and have a solid plan to do so.
- The other toot is that the mister got called back to the railroad. This is both exciting and more stressful than just having a baby to begin with. I am thankful for the railroad and the benefits it holds, but there are too many variables in that equation. Where will he be working? What shift? Will he be on the extra board and on call 24/7? will I be able to count on him having a schedule at all? How long until he’s furloughed again?
So now I have to figure out who is going to watch my son. Who is going to take him to school and pick him up while I’m at work? When my mom leaves after the baby is born, how will I juggle a preschooler and an infant on my own? When I come back to work, what will that look like? Tipping my hat to all single mama’s. Solo parenting is terrifying. I will just be thankful for the days he is able to be there and help.
I know that looking at everything I have accomplished this pregnancy, that I will indeed figure things out. Its tough without family support, but I have managed to make it this far with limited help. I am smart and resourceful and know when I truly need a hand. I know a couple people I can call in a pinch, too. The mister has pushed around taking a leave of absence and finding out what that entails. I do not put too much in that basket. He will not resign so I think we will have to ride it out.
Next week we are taking a “Babymoon” and leaving the boy at home with the nanny. The guilt I already have over this will probably make its way into another post, but that is for another day.
Leave me a comment and toot your own horn. I promise no one reads this thing! lol