This post is two and a half years old. Not much has changed, but I can’t help but feel someone needs this today.
I honestly do not care who has it rough–stay at home moms or working moms. I have it rough. Right now. And maybe you do to. Stop shaming other moms for having a tough time juggling their own impossible lives. Stop comparing yourself to other women. We are all fighting our own battles. And some beat the ever living crap out of us.
These graphics still make me laugh but they do a great job of depicting how I feel almost everyday. You might see an intelligent, highly self-motivated 30-something, but you have no idea how much concealer it took this morning to cover the circles under my eyes.
I.AM.SO.TIRED. I get to bed after putting the kids down for the tenth time and wonder 1. how I even made it to the end of the day and 2. if I even get to stay there because the kids need to be put back to bed eleven times.
Am I happy? Oh you bet. If I were bored, I would find something to do. Do I work too hard? Absolutely. And that is okay, too. I still show up every single day with a smile on my face and a strong coffee in my hand.
There are days when I feel like a failure. I wonder if I should quit writing all together. I fear working full time does an injustice to my kids. I feel guilty when school work needs to be done during prime family time. My wheels are just spinning under me and I am going nowhere. Then I ask my girlfriends if PMS is still a thing and they bring me wine and chocolate. Then the feeling passes and I’m back at it.
The point is, these are all phases. It won’t always be hard. But as much as me giving up writing sounds silly to you, I guarantee you’ve had these same thoughts about something when you were tired.
Maybe you did quit. That’s okay too. I’ve scraped my plate a time or two when I piled too much on.
The bottom line is it is okay to not feel okay sometimes. Just don’t live there. Figure out what you need and climb out of the hole.