COVID Journal 3

I want to write this epic woman’s struggle with premonitions about the eruption of the Super Volcano. Is she crazy? Is she not crazy? Is her obsessive prepping overboard or practical? No one knows until it happens.

I’ve called this “The Yellowstone Book” for almost a year now. I started it, but never really took it anywhere. School, work, kids, and the house all took priority over writing this story. The one I will sell to a Big 5 publisher. Maybe when I find room to breathe, versus being scared to.

I know a future exists when my kids will be in school full time and I will have time each morning to write my daily quota of words, casually sip coffee, and keep on a regular release schedule. Then there are other times I wonder if I will ever have the chance to write again. Will I even finish the series I started? Will that be the only work I produce?

For now, I cannot handle just one more thing to focus on. I have been reading quite a bit just to keep the lulls in the day interesting. I don’t watch much TV which is nothing new. I always keep a book on audio so I can multi-task and have shelves of books on my to-be-read list.

This week I am listening to Dark Places by Gillian Flynn. She is the author of Gone Girl and Sharp Objects. There is something terribly–and delightfully–wrong with this woman. That being said, I have about 8 hours left on this book and will try to finish it before April 1st. I like it so far. It is dark just like any other Flynn book, and I am anxiously awaiting the giant twist in the story she is so known for.

In print, I am reading The Color Purple by Alice Walker. I read quite a few shorter works by Alice Walker in college. Ordinary Use is likely her most famous shorter work. I had recommended this book to a friend having never read it, a classic Pulitzer Prize winning novel. Only one way to remedy that. I should finish this one today. Its a very quick read in at a low reading level, fitting to the content. I find the melancholy tone similar to Walkers shorter works. The writing is compelling. I am positive I will be sad when the story is over.

Otherwise, I pass the time finding new ways to put off going to the grocery store. Since the emergency rooms do not conduct routine labs, no one will get tested where I work unless they are a healthcare worker with our organization or they are being admitted to the hospital due to complications from the virus. We might speculate among ourselves, but give a stiff arm to people calling and asking if we might have. “Who knows?” I want to answer. If we did have a confirmed positive in my facility, we couldn’t tell anyone anyway. Two more shifts, but I doubt I make it out of here before it hits my neighborhood really hard. Time will tell.

Tomorrow I on-board for my new job. Human Resources for the State of Colorado will meet me in the office to verify my identity. I’ll get a laptop from my boss and be sent home to work in a field I have no experience. If anyone can navigate a new job while in quarantine it is me, but I know this already sets me up to hyper-perform for fear of failing. I am very curious if my peers are sitting in their home offices for 8 hours a day while the kids run-amuck. I asked for expectations, but still have no idea how much work they expect me to do. I’ll likely just do too much and set a crazy precedent for myself before I even make it to the office. I’ve already read every piece of material I had generic access to and I’m not even on the payroll for another 12 hours. Welcome to the life of a perfectionist.

That’s about it. Someone asked me today if there was anyway they could help. I have plenty of books on hand from canceled signings. If you need a great dystopian story to read, you can find autographed copies for sale discounted on my website or on Amazon, Barnes and Noble, etc.


Dacia Arnold is an author that struggles to find a balance of work, motherhood, marriage, writing, and the occasional craft. Her first full length novel, Apparent Power, is in the works to be released December 2018. Dacia served 10 years in the U.S. Army as a combat medic and deployed twice to Iraq and often incorporates these experiences into her writings both fiction and non-fiction. She currently lives in Denver, Co with her husband, two children, and a fat beagle named Watson.

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